Although we are still 18 days from Christmas, I feel that my gift came early this year — even if it doesn’t seem like an ideal one at first.
On This Sunday, I lament having to miss out on spending the Christmas holiday for the first time in 13 years. Ordinarily, since 2010 at least, I spent the holidays with my family in San Diego. This year, since I expended what little money I had left to relocate to the Bay Area from L.A. to rescue my flailing career prospects, it left me unable to afford flying back to SoCal as well as purchasing gifts for anyone. It is a disheartening fact that this will be the case this year as these are the few people in the world I love and care greatly for and do not see as often as I wish to.
Yet, despite it all, this holiday season won’t be as bleak as I envisioned it to be. For once in my life, I made an incredibly gutsy decision with no guarantees and little certainties as to what the future has in store for me. I made this decision based on an informed knowledge that this area holds more hopes for me than where I previously lived. There are already signs, based on my own efforts, that my career prospects are better in the Bay Area and slowly on the rebound. Somehow, I still continue to attend graduate school at San Jose State University without much trouble.
It may not seem like the best gift I could ever wish for but with patience, it very well might turn out to be what I have always wanted. While I’m not able to spend time with anyone this year, I won’t feel alone thanks to the continuing love and support from people that matter most to me. I won’t forget that.
Have a wonderful week, America!